CXVI

NOW IMAGINE ME
IMAGINE ME STANDING ON THE STAKE
BECAUSE I PRACTICALLY CANNOT MOVE
I'M COMPLETELY PARALYZED
JUST CAN'T MOVE

IT'S A TERRIBLE SITUATION I FIND MYSELF IN
EVERY NIGHT
THIS IS A TERRIBLE SITUATION
TO FIND YOURSELF PRESSED TO THE WALL
AND UNABLE TO MOVE

AND THAT'S A POSTURE  AND THAT'S A POSTURE
IT'S A POSTURE I'M USED TO TAKE
I FIND MYSELF PRESSED TO THE WALL
CANNOT MOVE

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IS IT NOT A DREAM BABY
IS IT NOT A DREAM YET
SO WHAT IS IT

SLEEPSTANDING - THIS IS SLEEPSTANDING
BECAUSE I CAN'T MOVE ANY MORE

NOW WHAT STATE IT IS  WHAT STATE IT IS
WHAT STATE AM I IN
I WONDER  I WANNA KNOW
MAY I  MAY I REQUEST IT

WHAT'S THE NAME OF THE STATE
WHAT'S THE NAME OF THE STATE
WHERE I AM IN
WHAT'S THE NAME OF IT

I HAVE TO NAME IT
AS LONG AS I DON'T NAME IT
I'M LOST AND I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM
WHAT IS THIS STATE

I CANNOT FLY AWAY
I CAN'T FLY LIKE THE THOUGHT
I CAN'T FLY AWAY
THAT'S THE FARTHEST I CAN REACH
BUT I CAN'T FLY  I CAN'T FLY
I CAN'T FLY
PRESSED TO THE WALL  I'M PRESSED TO THE WALL

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BUT EVEN IF I CAN MOVE
AND THAT'S THE SCARIEST IN IT
THAT EVEN IF I DETACH AND TRY TO MOVE
LIKE A DISSECTED GOLEM
THE WALL IS ON MY BACK
THE WALL COMES WITH ME

I'M NOT IMPRISONED - I AM THE WALL
I AM THE PRISON - I AM A PRISON CELL
AN OPEN PRISON CELL I AM
CORRECT?

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IT'S A DANCE MOVE - THE SPANKING GESTURE
THE SPANKING GESTURE IS VERY SIMPLE, ISN'T IT
THREE IS THE BEST OF IT - ONE OR THREE
AND YOU CAN DO IT WITH INVERTED ARMS
AND REPEAT IT AS MANY TIMES YOU WANT

IT'S A PROCEEDING GESTURE
AND THEN CAN HAVE OTHER CLAPPING SOUNDS AND MOTIONS
NOT PERMANENTLY BUT AS AN INTERMEZZO IN YOUR DANCE

IT'S BREAST SO IT'S NOT LIKE SO - MY CHEST IS BREASTS

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IF I HAVE A COMPLEX THAT I DON'T HAVE BREASTS?
CHARLOTTE IS POSED A QUESTION
LET'S SAY CHARLOTTE GOES TO A PRESS CONFERENCE
AND IS POSED A QUESTION
HOW DOES IT FEEL - REALLY HOW DOES IT FEEL

BECAUSE HORMONES AND ALL THESE THERAPIES
CHARLOTTE IS SO FAR OF
VERY POOR  SHE'S VERY POOR
CANNOT AFFORD SUCH THINGS

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THIS IS THIS VERY PATHETIC SYMPHONIC BUT NOT BLACK METAL
BUT SYMPHONIC METAL METAL
SYMPHONY X - VERY PATHETIC BAND
IT'S GOOD  IT'S RATHER ENTERTAINING
NOT DISTURBING REALLY
I THINK IT'S VERY NECESSARY TOO

THESE ARE NECESSITY BANDS

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NOW I DON'T KNOW NOW  I DON'T KNOW
THIS FRIGHT ALL THE TIME THAT I'M NOT RECORDING
LIKE I WOULD LOSE SOMETHING VALUABLE

BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW  I DON'T KNOW
HOW MUCH I CAN LIVE

I'M ON THE DEATH ROW  I'M ON THE DEATH ROW, BABY
I'M SORRY TO SAY
IT'S NOT A FUCKING JOKE - IT'S NOT A JOKE
I'M USING MY LAST DROPS OF ENERGY

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I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN THIS
BECAUSE YOU CAN'T DESTROY THE WALL
WITHOUT DESTROYING ME
I AM THE WALL - I AM THE SPIRIT OF THE WALL
IF YOU DESTROY MY WALL MY SPIRIT DIES WITH IT
DO YOU GET IT  DO YOU GET IT

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IT'S TRIPLE CONDITIONAL - MAYBE IT'S TRIPLE CONDITIONAL
THE WORD SITUATION IS TRIPLE CONDITIONAL
ALMOST UNSPEAKABLE
BECAUSE HOW CAN YOU SPEAK OUT THE THREE CONDITIONALS AT ONCE

YOU CANNOT PROLONG IT
THE SENTENCE CANNOT BE PROLONGED
IT'S ABBREVIATED
IT CANNOT ENUMERATE THE THREE CONDITIONS
AND MAKE UP THREE CONDITIONAL TENSES
SUBORDINATE TO EACH OTHER - COME ON

ANYWAY THEY'RE NOT SUBORDINATE 
SO HOW YOU MAKE THREE PARALLEL IN ONE
RA-HA  RA-HU

WE HAVE TO ERASE SOME CONDITIONALS FROM ME
BECAUSE OTHERWISE I'M JUST STANDING HERE PARALYZED
HOLDING THE WALL

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WASTED  WASTED OLD AGE
WASTED OLD AGE  ABSOLUTELY WASTED OLD AGE
ALL YOUR AGES YOU SEE
ALL YOUR AGES BABY
ALL YOUR AGES NOW
THEY HAVE BEEN WASTED
ALL YOUR LIFE HAS BEEN WASTED

NOT ON DRUGS  NOT ON FUN
NOT ON GIRLS, NOT ON BOYS - NOTHING
YOU WASTED YOUR LIFE ON THE VERY NOTHING

THAT'S WHY YOU HAVE THIS STATIC DREAM
FROM CORNER TO CORNER
FOR YEARS AND YEARS
RUNNING LIKE A RAT

VERY SCARED
CLOSED IN THE NARROWEST DREAM
IT'S FUCKING DISGUSTING ISN'T IT

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THIS IS MY SECRET STORY
THE SECRET LIFE OF CHARLOTTE
IT'S AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY

YES, HE WANTED TO TELL ME TO TELL YOU
THAT FIRST OF ALL THESE VIDEOS ARE AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL
AUTO-BIO-GRAPHICAL

THE SENTENCE CANNOT BE ABBREVIATED
I AM THE PERIOD AFTER THE SENTENCE
AND I WANT TO REDUCE THE NUMBER OF MY CONDITIONS

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WHEN YOU KNOW THAT YOU CANNOT HAVE JOY
YOU KNOW THAT STATE OF MIND
WHAT IS IT - THAT STATE OF MIND
WHEN YOU CANNOT HAVE JOY ANY MORE
BUT STILL CAN HAVE ALL THE PAIN
WHAT IS THAT STATE

NO JOY - ALL PAIN

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THE MASOCHIST PARADISE
I'M IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE
I MUST BE IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE
BUT WHAT AM I DOING HERE, HM
WHAT AM I DOING HERE, HA

I'M A STRANGER  I AM A STRANGER
I AM A STRANGER IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE

YOU CAN DO IT WITH THE SALUTE

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HELLO  WHERE WERE WE
WE WERE IN THE MASOCHIST PARADISE
I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M HERE - I'M NOT A MASOCHIST
EVERY MASOCHIST SAYS SO  EVERY MASOCHIST SAYS SO

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CHARLOTTE IS DOING A LASCIVIOUS DANCE
TO PIG DESTROYER

HOW TO COMBINE HARDCORE AND RETRO
BECAUSE THERE ARE PEOPLE SAYING
FROM THE GOTH SCENE FOR EXAMPLE
THAT THIS IS NOT ROCK'N'ROLL - THIS HARDCORE TRASH
YOU SEE - WITH THE SAMPLES IN IT
HORRIFYING SCARY SAMPLES

WELL WHERE IT BELONGS TO
IT BELONGS TO THE OPPOSITE TO INDIE ROCK
THAT'S WHERE IT BELONGS TO
IT'S HARD TO DEFINE THAT TERRITORY

THE COMBINATORY POWER OF OUR SPHERE IS REALLY INFINITE
THAT'S WHERE INFINITY IS

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GRAVEDANCER - THAT'S THE TITLE HERE
THAT'S WHAT I WANTED TO SAY
THAT WATCHING THESE VIDEOS KEEP IT IN MIND
THAT YOU'RE WATCHING 888 ON THE DEATH ROW

IT'S 888 ON THE DEATH ROW
WHAT YOU'RE WATCHING THROUGH YOUR KEYHOLE

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THE MAJOR QUESTION ALWAYS IS
WHERE EXACTLY DID I FUCK IT UP  WHERE EXACTLY
WHAT DID I REALLY DO SO WRONG
TO DESERVE THE COMPLETE RULE OF THE THREE M'S

MISERY MALADY AND MADNESS ARE COLLABORATING
SO YOU CAN'T REALLY MAKE A DEAL
LESS MADNESS THEN YOU GET MORE MISERY
OR LESS MISERY YOU GET MORE MALADY

YA, IT'S A PERFECT SYSTEM OF TRIPLE BALANCE, YOU KNOW
THE THREE M'S
YOU CANNOT DO NOTHING WITH THEM

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BABY HAS SO MUCH SELF-PITY
MORE SELF-PITY THAN ANYBODY ELSE
WHAT A MISERABLE CREATURE ISN'T IT
WHAT A MISERABLE CREATURE

888 ON THE DEATH ROW
888 ON THE DEATH ROW
888 ON THE DEATH ROW
IS A MISERABLE CREATURE

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OPEN YOUR EYES, BOY
GO WATCH TELEVISION
SO OPEN YOUR EYES, BOY
GO WATCH TELEVISION
WATCH THE NEWS OF MURDER AND SLAUGHTER
AND MISERY AND MALADY AND THE TOTAL MADNESS
YOU WON'T FEEL SO ALONE
YOU WON'T FEEL SO ALONE
IF YOU WATCH TELEVISION  

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THE OPPOSITES HAVE DISAPPEARED
THERE IS NO TWO SIDES
WE HAVE THE RIGHT TO CHOOSE
BUT THERE IS NOTHING TO CHOOSE BETWEEN

EQUAL ALTERNATIVES ARE THERE
THAT FINALLY JUST MULTIPLY

THIS IS INFINITY HERE
WHAT WE ARE LIVING IN NOW IS INFINITY
DISAPPEARANCE OF THE SIDES SHOW IT
WHEN THE SIDES DISAPPEAR YOU ENTER INFINITY
AND THAT'S WHERE WE ARE AT THIS POINT

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IT'S IMPOSSIBLE TO DIFFER
PAKISTAN FROM URUGUAY
THERE IS ONE WORLD
THERE IS ONE WORLD

THE DRUG WAR IS MUCH UGLIER THAN ANYTHING ELSE WE KNOW ABOUT
AND IT'S VERY CLOSE TO HOME
WE HAVE FREE TRADE WITH IT
DRUG GANG AND THE BOKU HARAM
IS ABOUT EQUAL IN THE CRUELTY
AND THEN WHAT ABOUT THE SERBS

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THE NATIVES ARE QUITE EQUAL
MAKE NO MISTAKE ABOUT IT
SO WE LIVE IN A CRIMINAL WORLD

THERE ARE THESE SCHOOLGIRLS THAT WERE KIDNAPPED
AND MOST OF THEM DIED OR PROSTITUTED INTO MARRIAGES
AND THEN SOME OF THEM ARE MAYBE STILL ALIVE OR NOT
THEY WOULDN'T TELL

THE PEOPLE ARE CRYING
AND SOME CELEBRITIES ALSO SAY THAT
BRING OUR GIRLS HOME
WHAT YOU MEAN BRING OUR GIRLS HOME
WHAT WILL YOU SAY WHEN IT'S YOUR GIRLS

SO WHY DON'T YOU SAY: BRING THOSE GIRLS HOME
THAT'S THE FIRST THING TO SAY - THAT'S FINE
BUT THAT WOULD BE CONSIDERED TOO CONDESCENDING, RIGHT
OR WOULD EVEN INJURE THE PEOPLE

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I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU MAY SAY EXACTLY
BUT THE NIGERIAN LADIES DEMONSTRATING IN THE STREET
LOUDLY CRYING WITH BRING OUR GIRLS HOME
THEY ARE TOTALLY IGNORED - IT'S LIKE A CURIOSITY REALLY
THAT SUCH THINGS ARE HAPPENING
SO INTERESTING, NO

AND IT'S A HORRIBLY HUGE NATION
MANY MANY TRIBES
AND THEY ARE ALL FIGHTING
AND EVERYBODY'S FIGHTING IN AFRICA
EVERYBODY'S FIGHTING THE OTHER TRIBE

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THE AFRICAN TRIBALISM 
THAT BROKE OUT AFTER THE COLONIALIST ERA
RIGHT AWAY - NOT RIGHT AWAY
THERE WAS A LITTLE TRANSITION HERE AND THERE
KONGO HAD A TRANSITION AND OF COURSE SOUTH AFRICA
HAD THIS SPECTACULAR TRANSITION LEADING WORSE THAN NOWHERE

THE FIRST LEADERS OF THESE LIBERATED NATIONS
WERE ALWAYS RATHER GOOD
THEY WEREN'T CORRUPT MAD SADISTIC TYRANTS

I DON'T THINK THERE IS A SINGLE PERSON THERE 
WITHOUT HATE FOR ANOTHER TRIBE
AND THEY ARE BOTH EQUALLY CRIMINAL
IT'S THE MASSES OF MURDERERS
IT'S THE MASSES OF MURDERERS

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COLONIALISM WAS THE GREATEST BLESSING FOR THE THIRD WORLD
THERE'S NO QUESTION ABOUT IT
COLONIALISM  WAS THE GREATEST BLESSING 
FOR THE WORLD BALANCE EVER LIVED

HINDU AGAINST MUSLIM, MUSLIM AGAINST CHRISTIAN, CHRISTIAN AGAINST JEW
IT'S THE SAME OLD MAP - I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR ON IT
I JUST CAN'T FOLLOW IT
I CAN'T UNDERSTAND
I CAN'T AGREE WITH ANY SIDE

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MASSES OF MASS MURDERERS
AND THAT'S WHAT FILL THE TELEVISION SCREEN
AND THEN SOME GOOD INTERVIEWS SOMETIMES IN-BETWEEN
WITH JOHNNY DEPP

I REALLY WANT ANOTHER FROM THAT APPLE