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EVEN LIKE THAT I DON'T LOOK
I TRY TO SHUT MY EYES WIDE OPEN
BUT THEY ARE STILL CLOSED
I'M STILL VIRTUALLY BLIND
I SEE THE CAMERA  BUT I DON'T SEE MYSELF  

I'M NOT AN ACTOR  THAT'S THE PROBLEM WITH ME
I CAN'T IMPERSONATE ANOTHER CHARACTER
AT THE SAME TIME I DON'T SEE MYSELF

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YOU CALL THIS A LOST SOUL
OSH SAYS TO ME
ALL YOU ARE IS A LOST SOUL
NOTHING ELSE

YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF CHARLOTTE
YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF SPIEL!
YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF DJ HELMUT
YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF ALEPH
YOU CAN CALL YOURSELF 888
BUT YOU'RE JUST A LOST SOUL, AREN'T YOU

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GO GO TO THE GUTTER WHERE YOU CAME FROM 
GO BACK WHERE YOU CAME FROM
BEFORE YOUR GENES
GO BACK BEFORE YOUR GENES
FROM BEFORE YOU CAME - GO BACK THERE
BEFORE THE GENES, YEAH

'CAUSE YOU HAVE TO WASH YOUR GENES
NOBODY CAN WASH YOUR GENES
THEY CAN WASH YOUR BRAINS - THEY CAN'T WASH YOUR GENES
YOUR GENES YOU HAVE TO WASH
NOTHING ELSE CAN
YOU ARE SUPPLIED GREAT DETERGENTS

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THE UKRAINIAN TROOPS OF EITHER SIDE
THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND IT
THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND IT
TO SACRIFICE YOUR LIFE FOR A PATRIA 
IS HELL'S FIRST DEGREE DECEPTION

THE PATRIA, OH THE PATRIA
AND THEN THE LIBERTY - THE LIBERTY

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THE OSP HAS NO PATRIA
IT'S A VIRTUAL LAND  THE OVERNATION
IT'S COVERING THE GLOBE - IT'S NOT ON THE MAP
IT'S A SPIRIT COVERING THE GLOBE
THE WHOLE GLOBE

THERE'S NOTHING TO DIE FOR
IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT WE HAVE TO DIE
AND IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT WE CANNOT CONTROL HOW
BUT TO DIE FOR SOMETHING
IT'S RANKING THE WORST CRIME AGAINST OSH

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BECAUSE THERE IS ONLY OSH
AND OSH IS THERE FOR EVERYONE
OSH IS THE AIR OF THE EARTH
OSH
AND NOW WE LEARNED TO PERSONIFY IT

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THE NAME OF MY SUPERSTAR FOR THE NIGHT IS LONI
THE GREATEST STARS TODAY ARE PORN STARS
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND THE MOST TALENTED

CASTING IS ONE GENRE OF PORNOGRAPHY
CASTING FOR PORN
MOVIE MADE ABOUT ITSELF

FELLINI - I WOULD LIKE IF HE HAD A LOOK AT THIS
THESE CASTING PORNS
BECAUSE THEY ARE VERY VERY INTERESTING
IT'S VERY INTELLIGENT PORN
THE CASTING OF A PORN STAR IS FILMED

THE MALES ARE SELDOM CAST BY FEMALES
I HAVEN'T SEEN THAT YET
MAYBE THAT'S THE NEXT THING
FEMALE CASTING AGENTS - THAT'S A GOOD IDEA
MAYBE IT EXISTS ALREADY

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THIS WOMAN WHO IS PROBABLY A PERFECT UNKNOWN
IS MUCH GREATER THAN MARILYN
A LOT GREATER ACTRESS

MARILYN MONROE OPENED THE GATE OF HEAVEN
IT LEADS TO CREAMPIE
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT

IT'S A GREAT EVOLUTION IN OVERCOMING BLACK MAGIC


I KNOW THE HEALTH ISSUES - CAN COME UP HEALTH ISSUES
BUT I THINK THAT'S EASY TO CURE, NO?
AIDS FOR EXAMPLE IS STILL THERE?

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I REMEMBER 1989 WHEN WE CAMPAIGNED AGAINST IT
AGAINST THE SICKNESS AIDS
WE ORGANISED A DEMONSTRATION AGAINST THE SICKNESS
THAT'S  WHAT WE WANTED TO ORGANISE
BUT THEY DIDN'T JOIN US - THE GAYS DID NOT JOIN US

AN AIDS CONFERENCE WAS THERE IN THE CITY
AND WE WANTED TO DEMONSTRATE NOT AGAINST THE GOVERNMENT
BUT AGAINST THE SICKNESS
BUT THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND ME
THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND ME

DOWN WITH THE SICKNESS WAS ONE OF THE PLACARDS
KILL THE VIRUS WAS ANOTHER
THERE WAS KILL THE CRIME OF COURSE AS WELL
WE SMUGGLED INTO IT PARTY SLOGANS
SAVE SEX WAS ALSO IN IT

NOW THAT WAS, WHEN, THAT IS IN '89
THAT'S WHEN THE JOE ROSE TRUST FUND WAS ESTABLISHED
IT WAS AGAINST VIOLENCE - VIOLENCE AND AIDS
JOE ROSE HE HAD HIS SHARE OF BOTH
JOE ROSE IS OUR MAJOR MARTYR
PATRON SAINT OF THE ATHEIST CHURCH
JOE ROSE FOR EVER  FOR EVER  FOR EVER

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THE ONLY JOB I WOULD LIKE TO APPLY FOR
IS TO BE A REVIEWER OF PORN
PORN REVIEWER I WOULD LIKE TO BE THE MOST
I COULD EXPRESS EVERYTHING THERE WHAT I WANT TO SAY
COULD BE A PERFECT INDEPENDENT VOICE
THAT I COULD WRITE VERY WELL
EVEN CONTRIBUTE TO THE EVOLUTION OF IT

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YOU HAVE TWO EVOLUTIONARY CHOICES
THE ONE THAT LEADS TO HELL
AND THE OTHER ONE THAT LEADS TO HEAVEN

WHERE YOU WANNA GO

EVERYBODY SAYS HELL
WE WANNA GO TO HELL
EVERYBODY WHO HAS ANY METAL IN HIS HEAD

WE'D LIKE TO COME BEFORE IT
YES WE UNDERSTAND WE HAVE TO GO THERE
SO WE WANNA GO THERE VOLUNTARILY AT LEAST
SOME DIGNITY LEFT - PARTICIPATE  PARTICIPATE

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THIS IS LORETTA - LORETTA LYNN
SHE'S A SECOND COUSIN
SHE BELONGS TO MY TREE
I HAVE MY FAMILY TREE
I'VE DESIGNED MY FAMILY TREE BY MY INFLUENCES
MY CAULDRON - I'M DESIGNING MY CAULDRON
BY CONNECTING THE WORLD FROM THE VACUUM I LIVE IN

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I LIVE IN A VACUUM AND DON'T TELL ME IT'S NOT TRUE
DON'T TELL ME THAT IT'S MY IMAGINATION
DON'T TELL ME THAT IT'S MY WEAKNESS
DON'T TELL ME NOTHING  DON'T TELL ME NOTHING
BECAUSE I KNOW EVERYTHING

DON'T TELL ME NOTHING MORE
BECAUSE I KNOW NOW EVERYTHING

AND YOU WON'T DECEIVE ME AGAIN
WITH MENACES AND PROMISES
MENACES AND PROMISES

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HAVE YOU SEEN IT
BROKE THE BLANKET
WITH THE LEG MOTION I BROKE THE BLANKET
BROKE MY BLANKET INTO TWO

MY PLATFORM IS INDEED HALVED NOW
BECAUSE OF THIS LEG MOTION

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NOW THIS IS NOT A CONFESSIONAL
I WON'T KEEP THIS ON THE TAPE
BECAUSE IT'S TOO PERSONAL, RIGHT

THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I DON'T WANNA BE
THIS LAMENTING WAILING JEW I DON'T WANNA BE
I DON'T BLOODY CARE ABOUT THE TEMPLE
I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE TEMPLE
I DON'T CARE ABOUT THE TEMPLE

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I - I I I I
I START EVERY SENTENCE WITH THIS
I I - I ALWAYS HAVE TO SPEAK FROM INSIDE OUT
AND THEN I THINK I AM MEDIATING
BUT I DON'T SAY NOTHING - I SAY I
I SAY I - NOTHING ELSE I KNOW

I I I
I EXPERIENCE MY LIFE AS I WAS AN ASTRONAUT
AND THIS DREAMSPHERE WHEREIN I'M TRAVELING
AS IF IT WAS MY SPACESHIP
AND I FEEL BEING ON A MISSION ALONE

WHAT IS IT  MY SWEET DOCTORS
DEAR JUNG  DEAR ADLER
WHAT IS IT EXACTLY  THAT SENSATION
IS IT PARALLEL REALITY OR A DERAILED FICTION

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AND THE WORST PART OF IT IS 
THAT I AM ALONE IN THE SPACESHIP OF THIS DREAM CAPSULE
BUT I'M NOT DRIVING IT
I DON'T KNOW WHERE IS IT GOING

AND I'M NOT TELLING THIS TO SHOW TO OSH
WHAT A GREAT LITTLE POET I AM
WHO CAN FICTIONALIZE HIS MISERY
SO BEAUTIFULLY AND MODERN

INCREDIBLE CAPACITY OF THE HUMAN BRAINS
THAT'S WHAT IT SHOWS, RIGHT
THE INCREDIBLE CAPACITY OF HUMAN IMAGINATION

(THE SNOOPY VERSUS THE RED BARON - 1966)

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OSH - I HAVEN'T MENTIONED ONE VERY IMPORTANT 
FUNCTIONAL UTILIZATION OF THE OSHIST BREATHING
BESIDE THE EXHALATION EXERCISE
OSH AS A LAST EXHALE
THAT'S THE MAJOR FUNCTION OF IT

IT'S ADVISED TO ABSOLUTELY EVERYONE 
TO DEPART WITH THIS UTTERANCE
OSH
THAT'S HOW YOU GIVE UP THE SOUL THE BEST

THAT'S THE MAIN FUNCTION OF OSH
THE OTHER IS SMOKING
ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU SMOKE WEED OR SUBSTANCES
OPIUM ESPECIALLY

SO YOU BREATHE IN WITH O
AND BREATHE OUT WITH SHHH
IT'S NATURAL, RIGHT
THAT'S HOW YOU HAVE TO SMOKE PIPES
OOO-SHHH
TILL YOU EMPTY YOUR LUNG, NNA

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THIS IS GESTURE SCHOOL MEMORY
I MENTIONED IT BEFORE BUT THIS IS MY LECTURE
THE SELF-CROSSING
CROSSING YOURSELF WITH THIS SIGN
OF THE AERO DYNAMICS

IN STEAD OF PUTTING THE CROSS ON YOU
1-2-3-4 - 1-2-3-4
1 2 3 4 BECAME 1 2 3 4

YOU CAN DO IT WITH THE OTHER HAND TOO
IT DOESN'T MATTER
THESE ARE YOGA EXERCISES
THE GESTURES ARE CONSIDERABLE AS YOGA EXERCISES
NOT ELSE

YOGA IS NOT JUST FORGETTING ALL THE UNIVERSE
NOT, NOT THE ALIEN YOGA
THE ALIEN YOGA IS THE CONTRARY
THE ALIEN YOGA FUSES THE UNIVERSE
FUSES THE UNIVERSE IN A GESTURE

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OSH IS A GATE
IT'S NOT AFTERLIFE
THERE IS NO LIFE AFTER DEATH, À PROPOS
THERE IS NO LIFE AFTER DEATH, À PROPOS
MUST BE READY - YOU MUST BE ABSOLUTELY PREPARED

DEATH IS UNKNOWN
AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LIFE AS WE KNOW IT

LAST EXHALE HAS TO BE OSH
AND THEN IT'S GOOD  THEN IT'S STRAIGHT
THEN YOU GET OUT OF IT
LAST EXHALE  THAT'S YOUR STEP OUT
THROUGH THE GATE - OSH
BECAUSE OSH IS THE GATE CHILDREN
OSH IS THE GATE

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BECAUSE WE ARE CROSS-BRED
BECAUSE WE ARE CROSS BRED
WE ARE NOT A CLEAN RACE
WE ARE NOT A CLEAN RACE

PEOPLE TRY TO BE CLEANER BY RACES
SOME RACES THINK THEY ARE PURER SOMETIMES
SOMETIMES IT'S TRUE SOMEWHAT
BUT IT DOESN'T MATTER
IT DOESN'T MATTER
DOESN'T MATTER
BECAUSE WE ARE ALL CROSSBRED

CROSSBRED BY WHO  BY WHO
DEVILS ARE THERE, ANGELS ARE THERE
ANIMALS OF ALL SORTS - TO EVOLVE FROM
GRADUALLY -

CROSSBRED OF WHAT
ANGEL AND CROCODILE FOR EXAMPLE
CROSSBRED OF AN ANGEL AND A CROCODILE
THAT'S A TERRIBLE FICTION ISN'T IT

HOW COULD AN ANGEL COPULATE WITH A CROCODILE
MAYBE A DEVIL COULD
MAYBE WE ARE THE CROSSBRED OF A DEVIL AND A CROCODILE
THAT SOUNDS MORE LOGICAL, YA