CXXXVI

I LIKE TO COLLAPSE
NOTHING I LIKE MORE THAN TO COLLAPSE
I DON'T HAVE TO DO NOTHING THEN
I'M JUST COLLAPSED

THE FEAR OF LIVING WHAT THE DEAD HAVE
IS CONSUMING THE SWEET SOUL OF THE ZOMBIE
THE SWEET SOUL OF THE ZOMBIE

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IN EVERY VIDEO I HAVE TO WRITE AT LEAST ONE COMPLETE SONG
SAY ONE APHORISM  ONE KOAN
ONE POLITICAL REFERENCE
ONE CONFESSIONAL
IT'S A DUTY  IT'S A DUTY WORK
I DON'T KNOW NOTHING ELSE  NOTHING ELSE

ALL I EVER HAD WAS DUTY
ALL I EVER HAD WAS DUTY
LIKE A SOLDIER OOOO
OBEYING  OBEYING
TO THE MOST ABSURD COMMANDS

OSSSHH

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"SAGT ER DANN ZU MEINER ZEIT
GAB ES SO WAS NICHT
DANN FRAG' ICH VOLL BESCHEIDENHEIT
MIT LÄCHELNDEM GESICHT"

CHARLOTTE'S IDEAL  ORIGINAL IDEAL OF THE WOMAN
WAS ZARAH LEANDER
AND MORE THAN MARLENE

THE SURROGATE MOTHER OF CHARLOTTE
IS ZARAH LEANDER
AND ALL SHE EVER WANTED TO BE
WAS A ZARAH LEANDER IMPERSONATOR
WITH THAT HAIR AND HOLDING
AND ATTITUDE  AND WISDOM  AND BEAUTY

DRIVEN WOMAN LIKE ZARAH
AND A CAREERIST  ABSOLUTE CAREERIST

THE LOYALTY OF MARLENE TO THE WORLD
SHE'S THE FIRST PATRON SAINT OF TREASON
BUT WON'T BE EASILY FORGIVEN


THESE BIG STARS ARE LIKE AVENGING ANGELS
THEY CAUSE SO MUCH HARM
NOTHING CAUSES SO MUCH HARM THEN A STAR

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JAWOHL - THIS IS HILDEGARD KNEF
IT'S A GOOD NAME
LONGER FORENAMES  FIRST NAMES 
AND VERY SHORT ONE-SYLLABLE SECOND NAMES
ARE USUALLY MATCHING
CHRISTOPHER LEE IS ONE VERY MATCHING EXAMPLE FOR THAT

NAME MATTERS A LOT
NOTHING IN THE WORLD MATTERS MORE FOR A HUMAN BEING
BECAUSE HUMAN BEINGS  UNLIKE LIONS AND OTHER ANIMALS
HUMAN BEINGS HAVE IDENTITY
THEY ALL ARE AN INDIVIDUAL
DIFFERENT  DIFFERENT

IDENTITY DIFFERS
THAT'S WHY WE HAVE IDENTITY
BECAUSE WE ARE NOT LIKE THE ANIMALS
NOT ALL THE SAME

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THIS IS CODED SINCE VERY OLD TIMES
NOW WE HAVE THIS SUPERCODE AND THEY WILL BUILD IT INTO YOUR ARM
MICROCHIP WILL DEFINE YOU
THAT'S WHAT THEY ARE SO AFRAID OF
THESE NEW RIGHT  LEFT-RIGHTS
RIGHT-LEFTS - THEY ARE VERY AFRAID OF THIS MICROCHIP

IT'S A RIGHTIST IDEA
BUT YOU DON'T SEE THE DIFFERENCE THERE ANY MORE
WHEN IT COMES TO THE TOTALITARIAN CORE OF IT
YOU DON'T SEE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN FASCISM AND COMMUNISM
OR CAPITALISM FOR THAT MATTER
IT'S JUST ONE SYSTEM FROM THAT POINT

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HILDEGARD KNEF WAS FIFTIES
ALL THESE THREE WOMEN WERE VERY SEX-REVOLUTIONARIES
THEY REVOLUTIONALIZED SEX

HILDEGARD KNEF APPEARED NUDE
IN THIS MOVIE OF HERS IN 1950
YOU SHOULDN'T SEE THE NUDITY
JUST YOU SHOULD SEE THAT SHE HAS NO CLOTHES ON
NO SEX INVOLVED AT ALL
AND THAT WAS ENOUGH

'SPIEL!
DREI FRAUEN OF OLD AND NEUE GERMANIA
GÖBBELS' FAVE ZARAH LEANDER DEBUTANT
AVEC KANN DENN LIEBE SÜNDE SEIN
FROM A 1938 COMEDY DER BLAUFUCHS"

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YOU CAN DO ANYTHING WITH THE SALUTE
YOU CAN START IT FROM A JUGENDSTIEL POSTURE
AND GIVE IT IN BAUHAUS STYLE
AHH - OOOOOH

"QUI SERA NEUE DEUTSCHE WELLE FROM THE EARLY EIGHTIES
COMMENÇANT AVEC UN COVER OF THE AFOREHEARD
MARLENE DIETRICH TUNE ADOPTED BY
DEUTSCH AMERICANISCHE FREUNDSCHAFT"

SO YOU EVEN CAN DO THIS
THAT IF YOU DON'T WANT TO GO BACK
BUT YOU ARE FULL OF DOUBTS OR TOO TIRED
TO SIMULATE TOTAL FAITH
THEN YOU CAN CUT SHORT THE BACKWARD GESTURE
AND DON'T SHOW BACKWARDS IF YOU DON'T REALLY BELIEVE IN IT
OKAY, JUST PUT YOUR CLOSED FIST TO THE FOREHEAD
IN AN EXPRESSION OF DESPAIR - IT'S STYLISH TOO
"DA-DA-DA"

OF COURSE THE GROIN START IS THE MOST COMFORTABLE ALWAYS
IT'S GROIN  -  SALUTE  -  FOREHEAD
"DA-DA-DA"

THE HUMAN SPECIE HAS TAKEN THE STANDING POSTURE
SO THE TRIANGLE IS NOW VERTICAL
"DA-DA-DA  DA-DA-DA"

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GÖBBELS TOLD HER ONCE THAT ZARAH IS A JEWISH NAME, ISN'T IT
AND SHE SAID THAT SO IS JOSEPH

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OOWAH  OOWAH  HERE IS YOUR FAVOURITE SONG
CHARLOTTE DANCE
CHARLOTTE  CHARLOTTE  DANCE CHARLOTTE
NEUN UND NEUNZIG LUFTBALLONS
CHARLOTTE  BE HAPPY
DJ HELMUT ONLY WANTS YOU TO DANCE
THAT'S ALL WHY HE PRODUCES YOU THESE SHOWS

HE PRODUCES IT FOR YOU CHARLOTTE
THAT YOU ENJOY THEM IN THE BODY
THAT YOU FEEL IT  HEY HA-HOO

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I ALWAYS DO WHAT I WANT
I'M NOT SERVING NO ONE
IT'S HORRIBLE  IT'S HORRIBLE
I'D RATHER BE A SLAVE
THAN THIS FREE MAN

I'D RATHER BE A SLAVE THAN THIS FREE MAN HERE

DOING WHAT YOU WANT
AND HE WANTS TO DO NOTHING
THIS VERY FREE MAN  THIS VERY FREE MAN
FROM TIBET

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I HAVE A COUPLE OF SPIRIT GUIDES - I DON'T DENY IT
DESPITE THAT I DON'T GO NOWHERE
I HAVE SPIRIT GUIDES IN MY STAGNATION

BECAUSE I'M TRAVELING YOU KNOW
I'M TRAVELING STAGNATING
I'M LIKE A DRUG ADDICT - ADDICTED TO SOLITUDE

I LIKE TO BE THE LEADER OF THE SOLITARY
I BELIEVE IN THIS OTHER DIMENSION
WHEREIN I PERFORM

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'I AM THE BLOODY EARTH
SEE YOU NEXT FRIDAY'

OH MY DYING BRIDE
CHARLOTTE - MY DYING BRIDE
HAS A CONFESSION TO MAKE

WHAT CAN YOU DO WITHOUT IDENTITY
WITHOUT IDENTITY  WITHOUT AN IDENTIFIABLE IDENTITY

THE PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WITH SO MUCH HATE
BECAUSE THEY CANNOT IDENTIFY ME
WITH THE CONTRASTS I'M PROJECTING
INVOLUNTARILY - I CANNOT HELP IT
I'M TRYING TO CONCEAL IT AS MUCH AS I CAN

THE CONTRAST FOR EXAMPLE  THE HAIRDO AND THE AGE
JUST TO TAKE THE BASIC THING
I DO NOT HAVE THE DEFENCE OF THE AURA

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FAME IS LIKE THE AURA - FAME DEFENDS YOU
BE HAPPY TO BE ASSAULTED FOR FAME
AND NOT FOR UNFAME
I'M DOING THAT PART

INSULTED WITH NO REASON 
OR TO BE INSULTED BECAUSE YOU ARE SOMEBODY
IT'S A VERY DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE
"99 LUFTBALLONS"

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THE FEAR OF GETTING BETTER
THIS TERRIFYING FEAR - THE FEAR FROM GETTING BETTER
I'M INTIMIDATED  I'M TOO INTIMIDATED
I'D RATHER BE WRONG  I'D RATHER BE WRONG
I WANNA BE JUSTLY PUNISHED
I WANNA BE JUSTLY PUNISHED
I WANNA BE WRONG - SO THAT I DESERVE IT

IT COMES FROM THE CHRIST - THIS ATTITUDE
IT'S TYPICALLY CHRIST
THE LOSER OF THE SUFFER OF THE INNOCENT

OOH I DON'T WANNA GET BETTER
BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO SUFFER INNOCENTLY
I WANT TO SUFFER  I WANT TO SUFFER AS GUILTY
AS GUILTY HE-HEY

PLAY IT GUILTY  PLEAD IT GUILTY
WHILST CONCEALING YOUR INNOCENCE
UR, THIS IS A MESSAGE TO YOU, UR
I KNOW YOU ARE  I KNOW YOU ARE

PLAY IT GUILTY
KEEP IT INNOCENT

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YOU HAVE TO DECEIVE IT
YOU HAVE TO CONQUER HUMAN RACE
YOU HAVE TO DECEIVE IT

NEVER TELL ANYTHING TRUE
NEVER SHOW ANY SIGN OF TRUE FEELINGS OR EMOTIONS
YOU HAVE TO BE A SPY  AN ACTOR

IT'S A DIVINE THRILLER OUR LIFE
DIVINE THRILLER - THAT'S THE BEST TO PERCEIVE IT
IN THE HORRORS  THE HORRORS

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SWANS IS PLAYING IN THE BACKGROUND
WHO COULD BE GREATER  WHO COULD BE GREATER
SWANS - THEY ARE THE GREATEST BAND PROBABLY OF ALL TIMES
THAT'S DARING TO SAY, DJ

'THE TRACK CALLED YOU FUCKING PEOPLE MAKE ME SICK
WAS TIRÉ FROM A NEW RELEASE BY THE TITLE
MY FATHER WILL GUIDE ME UP A ROPE TO THE SKY'

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IF I COULD DANCE WITH HIM  IF I COULD DANCE WITH HIM
THAT WOULD BE THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY ALLEGED LIFE
THE LOVE OF CHARLOTTE IS HIM
NOT SOMEONE ELSE - HE IS THE ONE
CHARLOTTE LOVES HIM  - HE'S A WHORE OF BABYLON

SPIEL SAYS: I CANNOT
SPIEL SAYS: I'M SO SICK
I'M FULL OF PROBLEMS
I'M OLD AND I'M POOR

HE IS JUST LAMENTING
SPIEL! THE OVERNATIONAL SOCIALIST PARTY
IS A MISERABLE WRECK

BUT CHARLOTTE HAS NOTHING COMMON WITH HIM, DOES SHE
CHARLOTTE  CHARLOTTE KILL HIM
KILL THE 24 CHARLOTTE  KILL THE 24 CHARLOTTE

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THREE TIMES EIGHT IS NOT EQUAL TWENTY-FOUR
BUT IT EQUALS ITSELF
THREE TIMES EIGHT EQUALS ONE EIGHT
EIGHT PLUS EIGHT PLUS EIGHT IS EIGHT
THAT'S THE FORMULA
EIGHT PLUS EIGHT PLUS EIGHT EQUALS EIGHT

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THIS BEAUTIFUL GOTHIC BLACKMETAL
OH THIS BEAUTIFUL GOTHIC BLACKMETAL

YOU CAN TORMENT WITH TWO THINGS
CAN TORMENT WITH NOISE  THIS IS VERY ATONAL
AND WITH MELODY - MELODY IS THE SAME TORMENT
THERE IS ALWAYS A FREE CHOICE

NO NO NO NO  IT'S NOT A WRONG WAY OR A RIGHT WAY
THERE ARE TWO WAYS - IT'S NOT WRONG OR RIGHT
EITHER IS WRONG, EITHER IS RIGHT
TWO WAYS CANNOT BE ANYTHING
IT CANNOT HAVE TWO WAYS - WHY WE HAVE TWO WAYS

FUCKING TESTING GROUND OF YOURS

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ANATHEMA IS ONE OF THE CRUELLEST BANDS AROUND
THE CAVANAGH BROTHERS - THEY ARE THE STRANGEST GENES
THE STRANGEST GENES  OF THE VAMPIRIUM

THE VAMPIRIUM EXISTS - IT'S A FICTITIOUS KINGDOM
THE VAMPIRIUM  HEY HOO-HOO
HIM IS A VAMPIRE - THAT'S WHY I'M ATTRACTED TO HIM
WE ARE ALL ATTRACTED TO THE VAMPIRES  THE VAMPIRES

I DON'T BELIEVE THERE WOULD BE GENETIC EVOLUTION
WITHOUT DRACULA - WITHOUT THE TEACHINGS OF NOSFERATU
WE WOULDN'T BE SO ADVANCED IN GENETICS
THAT'S HOW SYMBOLISM HELPS SCIENCE ALWAYS

ART ALWAYS HELPS SCIENCE
ART IMAGINES THINGS AND SCIENCE MATERIALIZES IT
THAT'S WHY IT'S VERY GOOD TO BE VERY UTOPIAN  
VERY FAR-REACHING

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THAT'S WHY I'M REACHING SO FAR
WITH MY UTOPIA OF OVERNATIONAL SOCIALISM
IT'S A UTOPIA - IT'S AN EXISTING UTOPIA
AS LONG AS I EXIST THE OVERNATIONAL SOCIALIST PARTY EXISTS

JUST LET'S FACE IT  LET'S FACE IT
WE NEVER STARTED OUT  WE NEVER STARTED OUT  NEVER STARTED OUT
WITHOUT MEMBERS AT ALL, DID WE
THERE WERE ALWAYS SEVEN TEN TWELVE
BUT WE NEVER TRIED IT OUT THAT ABSOLUTELY NO MEMBERS
ABSOLUTELY NO MEMBERS
A PARTY WITHOUT MEMBERS  A PARTY WITHOUT MEMBERS

BECAUSE IT'S NOT - TECHNICALLY WAS NOT POSSIBLE TO COLLECT MEMBERS
THAT'S WHY THE PARTY HAS NO MEMBERS
NOBODY COLLABORATED WITH ME ON IT
AND ALONE - I'M JUST TOO TIRED

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THE THEORY - THE THEORY IS MORE THAN ENOUGH
THE THEORY, OSH, IT'S MORE THAN ENOUGH
OSH - WHERE IS MY WILL
WHERE IS MY WILL

AS THEY ENLIGHTENED ME
AS THESE FUCKING DARK POWERS ENLIGHTENED ME
THIS FUCKING LUCIFER WITH HER LUCIFERIAN LIGHT
LUCIFER ENLIGHTENED ME
THE ANGEL OF LIGHT  THE ANGEL OF LIGHT
ENLIGHTENED ME

I JUST CALL IT A CURSE
JUST CALL IT THE SPELL  ENLIGHTENMENT

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THINGS EVOLVE
ALWAYS IN A STRAIGHT LINE
IT'S NOT SYMBOLICAL
THIS MIGHT BE SYMBOLICAL
BUT THIS IS NOT SYMBOLICAL